I sat in my doctor’s office yesterday crying, not because she was giving me bad news but because I was giving her frustrating news. I received my covid vaccination 5 weeks ago and have felt sick ever since – vertigo, nausea, headaches, low grade fever, losing weight because I can’t eat.

To be clear, I’m not opposed now to others getting vaccinated; I support vaccinations. I just should have known better than to do it myself. My body has reacted (overreacted) to every vaccination I have ever received. The worst was 13 years of migraines after 9 vaccines to travel to Africa. I have allergies and autoimmune diseases and several contraindications to the covid vaccine. But I listened to my rheumatologist and scheduled it.

Consequently, I have not been writing much for Come So Alive. I actually have a few ideas for posts but just can’t get my brain to work to write them.

I’m also worrying if I don’t post, you’ll stop reading me. What if that one person I write for loses interest? Then who am I writing for?!

Amid the frustration of my side effects and my lack of writing, I remembered my post from a few months ago about wanting to rest and not blog. How ironic that, now that I probably should be resting, I don’t want to rest but I do want to blog. I reread that post and think now it was meant for me, not a few months ago but me today. I wrote,

“So, this week’s post, this week’s lifeline in the storm, is the reminder to myself that, to come alive, sometimes you need to rest.”

And thus, today’s lifeline in the storm, for me at least, is resting by not writing a new blog but reposting my old one – about resting. If you missed it or need a reminder too, check it out here:

Resting in a Sunbeam