Finding breath and beauty amidst the storm

Category: The Mystery of God

Cherished

On a sunny June morning, I spent 45 minutes sitting in the rehab center parking lot taking care of the ever-present medical to-dos as Chuck was inside attending his PT appointment.  I completed one set of paperwork for the appointment we were going to immediately after that one and thought,

“Ok, today’s done.  What’s next that needs to be done for tomorrow’s appointments?”

I opened my phone to check the calendar and saw my meditation reminder. I decided to open the meditation app that I use before opening the calendar, and, as I did so, thought about what my pastor said yesterday when he visited us. We had been talking about meditations and he noted that if you take time for God, He shows up.

I haven’t been hearing from God much lately.  Too angry or too tired to be able to hear Him, maybe?

But I decided to stop and listen to a meditation, not expecting God to show up but just to take a break.

It’s time to let go

My view of the sunrise this morning.  From my son’s hospital room.  That faces west.  Not how I envisioned seeing today’s sunrise yesterday. (After only four hours of sleep, it took me an hour to realize the reason the sun didn’t seem to be rising over the bluff was that I was facing west – even though I had known the whole time I was facing west. Just thought I’d share that…)

There’s a pandemic and nursing shortage.  Hospitals are slammed.  And the staff here is asking what else we need, if there is something else they can do for us. 

Last night when we checked in, the hospital bed had a handmade fleece blanket on it for Cody to keep. The room number outside his door had a personalized sign with his name and a puppy dog stamp on it. A volunteer just came through with a free beverage & snack cart. A volunteer – amid covid!

This is an incredible hospital; we are very fortunate to live only 20 minutes from it.  To even get a bed.

And I really hate being here.

The mystery of righteous wrestling

Disclaimer:  I don’t actually think God is a surfer dude sea turtle.  But I do think He loves the ride, the highs and lows, with me.  Ok, I’ll let you read on now so you can see if you agree.

“Pray also for me, that whenever I speak, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel”

Ephesians 6:19

I have a reminder set on my phone for Mondays when I normally write my blog post: “fearlessly make known the mystery.”  Today’s post … I’m having a hard time even putting it into words.  It talks about, discusses that mystery.  But it’s a mystery so how can I really find human words to even come close to describing it?

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