We talk so much these days
Because I have so much to say
You stay and listen to me closely even though

You already know
You already know

JJ Heller, “You Already Know“

I found that song a few months ago (more accurately, that song found its way to me) to add to the “100 Days” playlist.  It’s a very catchy tune and those lyrics play in my head frequently.  Sometimes, in the weeks leading up to surgery, they were the only lyrics in my head all day. 

You already know.  “You” in the song being God. 

Last week, I reposted “Looking hard for signs of life” from Good Friday 2021, which it turns out is what we are doing this year after a new storm hit. In the original post, I wrote,

“After the storm, the ashes, the hard winter, do I usually look for life?  Or do I just mourn the loss?  Do I keep walking when the trees are bare?  Even though there are dead leaves wherever I put my foot next.  Do I hope, looking hard for signs of life?”

A year ago when I wrote that, God knew.  He knew what life would look like a year later.  And I feel a little betrayed.  He knew and He didn’t tell me.  That may sound odd.  No, I don’t actually hear a literal voice of God but I do hear from Him.  He knew and He didn’t tell me what was coming. 

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