In the last few weeks, I have wondered if ComeSoAlive.com was finished. I wondered, “How do I show others ‘coming alive’ when I am so destroyed right now? I’m only writing about how hard life is. I sound like Eeyore.”
These posts of honesty and pain and sadness are what I need right now. I have had days that I’ve asked God to help me write, because it’s healing and what I needed. But this darkness isn’t lifting anytime soon, and you may all trickle away in the meantime.
So, I thought, “Maybe I should stop writing for a while.”
On the website, I organize the different posts by categories, such as “Beauty in the Storm.” I typed thoughts during five years of epilepsy and, when I started Come So Alive, I thought that material, “Beauty in the Storm,” was what I would mostly use for posts…until I ran out of those entries. (I figured it may be a short-lived website.)
Yet, week after week, God has surprised me with blog posts that aren’t about epilepsy. Some certainly have been but, amazingly, I frequently wrote posts the day I published them that I couldn’t have even written four or five days before, because part of the story hadn’t happened yet. I have added new categories to the website as the topic list grew. I didn’t think “Eeyore” would be a great category to add though so I’ve wondered.