Two years ago, before my husband’s open-heart surgery, I realized I had been waking up morning after morning with a song already playing in my head. It didn’t start at the beginning of a song but somewhere in the middle, and it wasn’t the same song every day. So, I paid attention. For weeks, I had lyrics, usually about fear, playing in my head.

This morning I woke up at 4:37 a.m. – for some unknown reason – and had lyrics running through my head from a song I haven’t listened to in several days. So, I paid attention again and realized I was supposed to write about it. Because you may need these lyrics to get through today. Yes, you.

“show me it’s not mine to hold”

Those are the lyrics running over and over in my head this morning.

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When I am scared and stressed about something, I imagine lifting my hands palm up asking God to take it. Actually, asking Him to help me give it to Him because I don’t want to trust Him with it. What if He doesn’t fix it the way I want Him to?

And today, I guess His response is, “It’s not yours to hold.”

This pain isn’t yours to hold today either.

Andrew Ripp, “Something Beautiful“

Almost like I brought a bow and arrow to a gun fight
I’m out of my league I didn’t know what this would feel like
And I can’t help but feeling let down, deep in despair
Like I’m praying to a god that’s not even there
Now I’m on my knees one more time
I need you, I need you to

Take my pain and make it something beautiful
Take my sorrow show me it’s not mine to hold
If you’re here with me in the waiting
Even when my heart is breaking
Take my pain and make it something beautiful
Something beautiful